At a whim you decide having me in your life is too painful and that it’s selfish of you to keep me around. Then you leave without saying anything more than “goodbye” and I’m sorry”. You tell me to just forget and move on, that it’s easy and that I’m strong enough to do it. I struggle for months wishing you’d come back. I fight back against reality, telling my self someday you’ll return.  Then suddenly, when I come to terms with the pain and take a step forward, you come back. You say you’re sorry you left but you had to and I understand and believe you and in that moment all the pain fades away. The love I have for you blossoms again and becomes so much stronger. You aren’t mine but you’re here and that’s enough. Eventually I’m struck with another pain when I see how he treats you. You said he’s changed but neither of us ever believed that. When he breaks you again I’m waiting with open arms.  I take you in and bring that beautiful smile back to your face. But I know it won’t last because he’ll come back, you’ll leave again and, some day, you’ll return.  All I can do is wait for things to come full circle again. I’m waiting to move one step forward and two steps back, for you.